get up up in my brain
to the center of my frame
to the door of my soul
when my eyes begin to roll
i rip off my shirt
fuck ladies in their skirts
and talk with everybody
when everything is coming out
but only the people that do the drugs
are ok with how much you do it
but what a way of life
even if it gets old
but i dont see how it can
as long as sober can take hold
and it can really easy
all it takes is no poison
then everything becomes stress
and more accurately an annoyance
reality sets it
and everybody is glad
then they feel their withdrawl
and want to go back with their cash
and spend it some more
because i had a good time
and even though it costs more
than it should every time
i dont give a fuck
it fills the hole in my heart
just a little each time
and my mind balances out
or am i crazy for using
am i normal at best
im having a good time
and this was always part of the rest
of my life and my soul
so maybe that theres the problem
that i have a problem with drugs
even though i still want em
i dont know their longterm
and thats not the point
the point is right now
but is blowing your head off
from taking too many drugs
too little fun
thats fine and go do it but dont have a family of your own
or at least dont kill yourself in your home
but crazy is bad
crazy is gooood
cuz some bitches are down
when they get a look at my wood
straight to the dome
up in the skull
my money is spent
on the last call of all
or the first or the best
or my meaning to rest
if i dont know what i ssay
i am leaving it to the best
and what comes out is fine
or at least its okay by me
but i still dont pay money
and i have no rent fee
and i dont work 40 hours
and chicago is scary
just because i have a different view of music
and how i want to go about it
we need a drummer
and a bassist
and i can sample and dj
lets go old school on this bitch
but bring in new shit like breezy
and itll swing off the top
and itll be off the chain
erry lady around
i got all of them to came
and sometimes im just a rapper
other times an actor
to say nevers a lie
and in fact uhh im dapper
i got flair in my boots
and a skip in my step
but it scares the shit out
of everybody around
when i think about writing
and dont do it
i dont want to
oh its going to be hard
oh its going to be a problem
it SHOULD be like this or it should be like that
it needs to rhyme here
or it needs to rhyme there
but frankly im noticing
that i dont really care
as long as its a beat can rhymezone take flight
and make content generation
the easiest plight
like a super cool blog
with high ranking already
that gets an ecigarette post
and backlinks a steady
i watch the word count rise
and im amazed by the speed
but what am i saying
and how fast am i typing
and everything has a beat
even if theres no rhyme
but im saying something unique
10% of the time
and 100% when i rhyme
im butter smooth
and getting stronger
gaining some good weight
excersisings important
not dwellings important
easier said than done
so far what im learning
its time to get dumb
or just have some fucking fun
drop the stress
it aint real
whene everybodies
lookin at you
get comfortable, for real
you lookiin good boy
you got some work under belt
and still some more growing to do
sorry you cant help it
or can you
get out
go explore be unique
find mountains and women
and find the surfing and beach
sh 13 the house filled with meat
with charlie jacob sean ben and zain
wtf lol
thinking too hard
get back to ttyping fast
whats my typing per yard
and yard per minute
so i can win it
so i excel to the marker
thats infront of my face
i really want some ice cream
shoved in my face
and i love this place
and loathe being alone
because its boring
but itspart of life
and i want to be able to deal with it
for long periods of time in case i have to so it doesnt come as a suprise
suprises are scary

suprise this is over!!1

fuuuuck it
i want to drop out of school
i want to be a loser
i want to be different
sometimes
i want to work out like im in the military
and i want to take the bus and skateboard
wheres my car?
i dont have a car
its not worth the money
its not worth the money to make travel easier

thats a lie of course
its worth it
but theres only so many ways i can be different
only so few methods

that girl in native american history
id be worth a fight for
if i wasnt the same
yo can you give me a ride i dont drive and the bus is stinky
no? well whatever i dont give a fuck

BLAZED ALL DAY
RIDE THE BUS FOR MY PAPES
THE INTERNET THINGS GREAT
and i make music like a motherfucker

how can i get money
not working

its harder than youd think

a couple strategically placed websites
eh
a week long binge on a method
that sounds more likely
or a client

respond to a couple of emails
use their money to buy them links over the year
$500/mo

that sounds stupid
like
stupid easy
or stupid, you should be doing that already

but running a business is stress in my belly
and stress in my heart
but so is working 20 hours a week + school
talk about stress in my heart

if I had two $500/mo clients id make double what i do now
in, well, probably about the same amount of work if not less.

get a blackberry
check email in the morning and at night
then be notified all day long if someone emails you because its a motherfucking blackberry

fuck i got distracted

im gettin real tired of dealin with you bitch at all
i wanna get a blade and finally get somethin through your thick skull
im gonna crush your head until its pourin out orange juice
and drink all your arrogance that tastes like puke

i know what im nottz
my bros dont got glocks
live at home with my moms
sit in class and watch clocks
give it up for nasty
cd civil war release party
hardly anybody show up
but now were grown up
we gotta show the world
that we have somethin to own up to
then gettin way too drunk and urlin on the bathroom floor
vacuums my chore and my condoms in my drawer
and now my condoms in this whore
and endin up on the floor
couple fuckin things
that i thinks is important
emails importin
overseas deportin
clicks in assortments
my dicks in a sore clit
this is endorsement
life lesson 101
its not fun
but its gotta be done
run run as fast you can
to take it slow homie
chill n listen to the jam
pbj
me say
i beat gays
and take V cards and bjs
on birthdays
its the worst thing
so my necks bout crackin
disgusting instrumentals
blunt sticks and rapping
techno and hacking
spam on attack
and your servers overrun
but my home page lackin

gotta get some seeds
i need to load my weapon
prayin to him, please there
no spam filters in heaven
i dont got the spintax right to get inside it
stumbled on the trail now im really tryna hide it
i cant confide in my shrink cuz hes fed i think
heard a click sounded like a bug that woke me from my sleep
im not that deep in
but enough to know the drama
its do or die with no sleeping
doobie down coma

im not all about the skrilla
or all about the chillin
gotta get a milla
without becomina villain
its not fun feelin
when it ends up blood spillin
do you gotta touch the top
or follow me and just run with it
um missin
i dont know about it
i gotta couple doubts
but i dont think you wanna hear about it
cant go near or round it
here or there or anywhere
i cant hear the siren soundin
guess im grounded deardelaire
beer to prayer, by that i mean shes on her knees
doin things i dared her to, tolder her no, she said please
well who am i to deny
this pretty sight
that i quite so had in mind
this little dime
i had in my back pocket the whole some time
i said to her come over
she said itll be a second
till i attended to your boner
drivers license says a doner
but thats all a little challenge
im #1 for chaos
in google search
i just might cause some damage
ill

http://soundcloud.com/billurfquaekz

that are at least full song length, although could all be finished

the gr3at fl0od
output m1
danny boy aka holy water
im sending packages to istanbul
it is what it is
computer talk (dyin over money)
the ‘fast life’ syndrome
academic probation

i sit on computers i make programs to bring in the traffic
cept im not a loser like ud think, im fucking bringin havoc
my play is a comedy, cant b dealin with this tragic shit
college in the morning supposed to sleep i havent it
i aint grabbin it, it falls right in my fucking palms
dont try too hard kid, i wrote it in a song
i wrote the psalms and the tao that cant be spoken of
ur trying to number 1 well i hope that you got hope enough

some things i forget that i read

Small talk is a buzz kill; compliments are okay. Tell her that she’s beautiful and incredibly sexy, then let the kissing and undressing begin—as in the second you walk through the door. You’re both in this for the sex, so make it adventurous.

i want to be a part of something
but something new
thats stupid though nothings new

but i want to be part of the aol scene in the 90s
or the raver scene

like
this dude ytcracker
i dont know why i care about this guys life

its surreal the things hes done
but i ahvent done any of them

i want to be a hacker
but im not i dont know how to code
i can code some websites in php

i want to be ballin out of my own work
and the easiest shit is illegal
but im smarter than that
im not going to jail again
that shits bogus
i hate it
granted i always feel a little trapped
but what the fuck

i like hacking
but i hate computers
i love them but i have a real hard time sitting down and being on them for extended periods of time
because i feel like im missing out on life
lifes there it goes on blah but i feel like theres shit out there i havent seen
but then again i havent seen it so maybe there isnt shit going on

i dont feel like shit is going on
theres just a lot of people getting drunk and giving up
i dont wnat to give up
but what else is there, really

i want to accomplish things
but i feel like i have this strong will
and that i should decide what i want first
i dont get headstrong and go into something
i just dont

i carefully plot my moves, which right now has related into nothing
yeah theres na style jaa (Rap Music)
but that hasnt gone anywhere
and i dont know if i have that much faith in that

i also dont have hobbies
because they always turn into work
i really dont want music to turn into work

i want to be rich
but i want to be poor
i think something beautiful comes out of no money
brent said ‘welcome to the dark side’
referring to this beat we made and the swing drums
but like
being broke brings out that dark side

ughhh fucking cigaretets
i want to quit
but i havent decided
i lost my will
i feel like time will help
but if it doesnt then i wasted a lot of times

FUCKIFDSIFNSDFS maybe i should just make a bunch of websites and sell links and make a bunch of websites and sell them

or start a fucking seo business and just buy an seo package from layered links and boom no work money other thna dealing with clients

see i think really far out in the future
which is bad for me
but that whole eternal tao quote thats like dont try to change yourself
makes me think that i shouldnt try to change my way of thinking
even though i try to change it all the time

ugh my throat hurts
and i feel like cancer
i want to smoke some weed
but that wont be the magic help id oh so desire
what would bbe
maybe if there isnt
then id have to fend and my shit will come out